it’s much too early, for me. after a profound experience that just ended hours ago, i can’t bring myself to say, “camp 2011 is over; it’s time for camp 2012 to come around!” not this year. i said it with a naive heart the past 4 years but this year is different. even though camp is over, the theme, the lessons, the words, the truth is still living on strongly in my mind and heart. i’m not about ready to leave that all and hope for the unknown. maybe uncertainty is a master of mine, but i’d rather think of my mindset as an opportunity for closure. i need time to close this in my heart. maybe it’ll take a day, a week, month, a year up until camp 2012, who knows how long God will work in my heart? the one thing i know is that God is good and to remember and meditate on the beautiful sacrifice of Jesus for me and what resulted as a consequence of it is the most awe-inspiring, unforgettable, and refreshing things to think about. 

i need closure, and what better way is there than to let God close my heart for me?